Jesus replied, “You do not realize what I am doing, but later you will understand. ”
Happy Saturday my people! It is the first weekend of our new year and we all have different resolutions, paths, relationships, meaning, and timelines. We have thoughts about how 2019 will pan out, but I had dreams and aspirations for how 2018 would go, but my timeline won’t always look like God’s timeline for my life. I am sitting here at my most favorite coffee shop (Frothy Monkey), and am honestly speechless. For those of you who know me, it is incredibly hard for me to be speechless. I am overwhelmed by how my timeline and God’s timeline for my life are completely different, yet perfectly in sync. Did I believe I would be ringing in the new year without my other half by my side, absolutely not. But instead I rang it in with my friends and family who mean the world to me, giving me a different perspective to the new year.
Recently, I have been reading “Remember God”, by Annie F. Downs, and she so graciously put into perspective many of the things I have been feeling lately. Frustrated, sad, down, unwanted. All of these things whispered into my ear at the end 2018, making it a fight to get out of bed in the morning, write, workout, and even be with friends. But once again, God’s timeline is always the best for our life. Little did I know that the end of my softball career, the end of a relationship, and graduation were all leading me into a life of teaching, leading, and coaching a young, spunky group of girls into the beginning of their softball careers, learning more about myself and God, and creating new, lasting friendships.
Sometimes, we look at our pasts and realize that our lives are pure God moving. Other times we look back and ask, “God where are you?”. This question can turn into a spiral of other questions, but when we don’t see God moving in our life, we tend to shut Him out (at least I did). We see Him working in other people’s lives and wonder why not mine. But we come back to the process of His timeline, not ours. Sometimes God goes silent in our lives to teach us certain things or to ask the tough questions we normally would not ask if He was radiating change in our lives. For me, I stopped writing and doing my daily devotionals. I poured my pain into just “getting through the day”. But I recently learned to look at the little things God does for you. Did he open up a parking spot next to the door when it is raining? Did he save you from a car wreck? Did he put a smile on your face from a dad joke? It may seem silly, but finding the small things God gives you reminds you He is always there, maybe just not in the way you think He should be.
Going into 2019, I want to appreciate the little things. I want to improve my mental and physical health. I want to let God in control of my timeline, instead of me trying to fix every little detail. I want this year to be a “New Year, New Perspective” kind of year.
I challenge you to be in the moment. Build relationships and meet new people. Go out of your way to be kind to someone. Lead your generation. Be a man or woman of God. And let God build your timeline.
Love y’all as always.